Posted by Dauphine on March 29, 2004, at 15:05:15
In reply to waiting for meds to work, so sad, posted by Dauphine on March 29, 2004, at 13:55:34
it is far worse than being a drag -- i was slashing my wrists only last week. i didn't know how to get my anger out over losing a very addictive relationship with a severe alcoholic/addict. i guess i understated how bad i feel.
i understand that meds are not *happy pills*, and i've wrestled with 2 years of ongoing depression before coming to the difficult decision to take medication for it. what prompted me is that i started entertaining suicidal thoughts on a daily basis.
i don't want to die, but I don't want to live like this either.
> I recently started taking Effexor XR at 75 mg/day. I am on my 12th pill now and in the beginning I felt drugged so that made me calmer, but for the past week or so the only emotions I have felt are bad ones (obsessive anger, self-doubt, frustration etc.). I know these things take a long time to work sometimes but this waiting game really sucks. I have never taken an AD before, so I don't even know what to expect. It seems that I just go throught the day waiting for it to be over with, measuring my life with coffee spoons, to borrow a phrase. The side effects from Effexor don't seem to bother me at all, the only one that I've really experienced in any intensity is a dry mouth, which is totally manageable. I know it's a hard thing to quantify, but how do you know when an AD starts to work? It seems so subjective. I just don't want to be such a drag anymore, to myself and anyone around me.
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