Posted by sekou on March 14, 2004, at 20:44:19
Hi All,
It's been some time since I've connected chat. I miss everyone. Well, I've been on Lexapro now (10mg) for about 4 months. It's been working wonderfully. However, I do find at times (during tremendous stress) that I still have occasional breakdowns. Just last night my partner and I were arguing over the phone and I basically went into a tirade about how life doesn't matter, crying, and shaking all over. I am going through therapy, taking the Lex, practicing meditation, sleeping well. But then the ugly "anger" and self-defeating thoughts come out at times. Last night, I truly felt like a failure. I felt tremendous guilt for getting angry and allowing myself to break down again. I ended the evening with so much anxiety that it was nearly impossible for me to do my meditation practice. Setbacks like these can be so discouraging! I feel that I make small efforts everyday just to end up having yet another breakdown. I hope to hear from any of you on similar experiences and what you've done to get integrating into your healing. peace - sekou
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