Posted by Cecilia on March 8, 2004, at 4:20:48
In reply to Re: The search is the cure, posted by noa on March 7, 2004, at 12:13:37
I guess the search does help distract from the pain but on the other hand it makes it so much worse when each new thing fails. You don`t want to let yourself hope but you still do. My most recent trial was rTMS-I told myself don`t get your hopes up, it probably won`t work, nothing ever has, but of course, I WAS hoping, or I wouldn`t have spent all that money. Plus the treatments were extremely painful and it just made me feel like I must just deserve to be depressed. I know that`s part of depression, yet I find it so hard to imagine what my life would be like if the miracle cure came along. It feels like depression IS my life and if a cure came I would drop dead the next day. Depression is so painful, yet looking around at other people who either aren`t depressed or are good at hiding it (I just find it so hard to believe there really ARE people who genuinely aren`t depressed)-their lives look like so much work. Cecilia
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