Posted by PsychoSage on March 7, 2004, at 17:24:55
In reply to just out of psychiatric hospital, posted by Leah57 on March 7, 2004, at 16:40:51
> Hi Everyone, I posted here sometime ago regarding Remeron and how it made me feel like I was on speed.
> Well to make a long story short, I was taken off the Remeron, wound up suicidal and was hospitalized for 5 weeks with 1 of those weeks under constant supervision with all my rights taken away. I am now on 150mg Elavil and .5 mg Klonopin twice a day. I am doing better though I still have some bad days. It has been really hard to be back home and resuming my life. People have a lot of questions as to where I have been and my son who's 15 is feels really awkward around me. I can't believe this happened to me and it still seems surreal. This was my first hospitalization and I never, never want to go back there. Leah
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welcome back. I have done two 1week-stays. I am 25, and the first was a little more than 4 years ago at a dual diagnosis ward/detox in a hospital on my school's campus, and then a little more than 2 years ago I was suicidal and hallucinating [depressed to pieces}.Consider it a blessing. You will come down to earth someday. Just relax and take some time with yourself. Your son is probably having a hard time understanding and is shocked and worried. Give him sometime to understand and make she he knows he is loved by you. He needs support too, but let's get to you again.
It's a great thing to be back, but it's painful to know where you were at and then having to repeat this 83 times. Monitor your emotional energy and let the benefits and insights work their magic on you. You will understand much later on what this was beyond the meds situation. Even if this was drug-induced, it probably evoked a lot of your illness for you to see real-close.
I am sure your family and friends had some rough nights while you were in the hospital walking that highwire.
You will be blunted for a while, so take it slow again because it's not going to leave your mind anytime soon as your perspective on it matures.
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