Posted by socialdeviantjeff on February 28, 2004, at 3:30:05
In reply to Re: Abilify Chronicles-Week 1, posted by Ilene on February 27, 2004, at 16:17:55
> > Well, I thought I'd take a cue from the other Pbabblers and do my own med journal.
> >
> > I've been taking 5 mg. of Ablify for roughly two weeks. I had to stop for a few days because Pleurisy and I was Leery of combining it with major painkillers.
> >
> > Anyway this drug is the first one to have some tangible positive effects in spite of the drawbacks. It doesn't help with the depression, but I can actually do things and I'm not too overwhelmed by projects. I even managed to make and RC car out of some piece of junk without anything in it for my daughter. Took 2 days to fit the motors and electronics and it looks exactly as it did before except for a power switch in the bottom. Now I'm dragging out all of my former lab piece by piece. She thinks it's neat and is interested in electronics now. I've also been more organized lately. Not much more, but an improvement.
> >
> I've read that sometimes people feel more energetic before they feel less depressed. A good sign.
>crossing my fingers....
> > The drawbacks are that I'm really edgy and impatient. Worst of all, I have true insomnia. Not just the usual delayed phase problem. Gotta see about a sleep aid.
> >
> Can you take benzos?Nope. too high abuse potential. Plus even a low dose works but makes me a zombie.
>
> > Yesterday I went out with some friends and had a fairly deacent time for a change. Really rough around the edges but better than a month ago.
> >
> You've got friends! Mine have all disappeared.I haven't.... :) Most of my friends have mental ilness. Three are Bipolar and one is Schitzophrenic. I suppose that's why we all get along so well.
>
> > Today, things were not so great. I went back to work after two weeks and I was late. I got down on myself about how I can't be on time and can't do even half the things required of me. I don't belong. I spiraled into suicidal ideation for a while. I also nearly fought a customer. Not the best return to work day I guess. I feel like crap but at least I have energy.
>
> Maybe you should get a job as a bouncer. Then it will be okay to get into fights with customers.
>Aaaahhh... Tried that. Apparantly I'm not good at a REAL confrontation. I sort of gray out and become 5 years old.
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