Posted by Kacy on February 25, 2004, at 14:21:53
In reply to Re: Adderall-Ritalin-Adderall, posted by PsychoSage on February 18, 2004, at 4:54:20
> "i am so skeptical of amphets/methylphenidate for this reason. I never took these over time or by prescription, but I was experienced with illicit stimulants to be knowledgeable about how they affect the brain. I did have a short period with ritalin use in school, so I know what a less euphoric stimulant is like in terms of onset, effects and crashing down.
>…because even though it brings you up and makes you productive
>…it doesn't allow you to be too flexible with your emotions.
>…she had little time to work things out in the right mood."
Pschycosage: I appreciate your concern about what could be happening to people who are taking stimulants. Just know that none of the above applies to me or others like me. I wouldn't mind a little euphoria, but it just isn't a state I'm likely to ever see from a drug or from anything in life. I'm not using speed. I'm taking a hormone.The drug doesn't make me productive. Yes, I can be more productive with it, but it's actually helping me by making me more effective as I keep working at doing the things I have always worked at. I have tried all my life and I keep trying.
The right stimulants do allow me to be more flexible with my emotions. As a matter of fact, I experienced more emotions and a lot better thought, the type of thinking I've always been capable of of but was too blanked out to follow. I didn't even care when my emotions were negative because I actually had some feelings to go with them. (I never expected a happy pill.) And I started to remember my life. That was amazing.
On the last note, I'm with you. I have little time to work things out in the right mood—but that's because the time I have is limited to when the stimulants work, and that time is limited to when I am allowed to have them at effective doses.
Last month was lost to a brand that didn't work. That was four weeks of zero help after two and a half months of progress. Well, I know I have to try them. This month, I finally conceded to try dexedrine instead of Adderall. Contrary to what the doctor had said before, he started me on a lower dose. Now it will be five weeks of what for someone like me is a starter dose. "Fail on this and then we'll try more." At that point, he wouldn't let me out of it, meaning he wouldn't write a prescription for Adderall. Three months titrating up on Ritalin. Three months titrating up on Adderall. Can we learn from the past here? Have we learned nothing? Try to be sincere. Thank you, Doctor. (I don't think I got it out.) Power, opportunity and corruption: it applies everywhere, doesn't it?
Some of the most depressing times I have are after seeing the doctor, and this guy's probably better than most. I get tired of paying the price for all the people who abuse drugs, the price exacted by the right in their war on people.
poster:Kacy
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