Posted by yoyoma on February 18, 2004, at 19:17:20
In reply to Re: i have alot of problems » yoyoma, posted by Chairman_MAO on February 18, 2004, at 18:59:50
> I have an extensive history of drug use/abuse. I've used just about everything besides PCP (which no one should ever touch, not even animals). Although I didn't do too much ecstasy (because of neurotoxicity, and from what I'm starting to see it was a wise move), I know what feeling "burned out" is like. I doubt what you're feeling now is due to pot use, save maybe some of the depression and inability to feel pleasure.
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> How recently did you cease drug use? I can tell you that thinks get a lot better as the months go by. I haven't been "clean" for more than about four months, and I probably won't be "clean" from pot for many years (although I am now while my meds are being figured out).
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> Let your psychiatrist do his thing, and do not object to being on "a lot of meds". If you felt no qualms about taking a metaphorical brillo pad to your brain with all that Ecstasy, you shouldn't resist taking meds that might actually help you.
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> How much X did you do, and in what dosages? My psychopharm professor told me there is zero worry if you take 1 pill per month. I am assuming you did a lot more than that. He also told me that Alexander Shulgin, the psychopharmacologist/chemist who reintroduced MDMA to the country in the 70s, used it for writing EVERY WEEKEND and suffered no ill effects.
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> If you have any questions, please ask. I and tons of other people here would be more than happy to help. I feel for you, and know what you're going through. Vow not to use drugs again at least until you have your meds worked out, and even then I do not recommend anything except moderate alcohol and marijuana consumption. Leave the MDMA alone. I've had so many shrinks tell me horror stories about patients they've had who will probably have to be on a lifetime course of SSRIs to compensate for the damage induced by excessive X abuse.
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> Be well man, and hang on; it is so rewarding when you step back into the light!haha. i want to step back into the limelight for sure. i didnt do that much exstacy relative to most ppl(20 pills spaced over 8 months i believe). But i cant even smoke pot ocassionally now because i always get tense, paranoid, and feel alot of pain...exactly all the opposite effects it used to have on me before when i enjoyed it.
I havent done e for over 3 years now and dont plan to touch any illegal substances in the future (except pot of course). what do you think? thanks for relating.
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