Posted by jay on February 17, 2004, at 16:42:59
I have had breakdowns in the past....but none "hath no fury" like the one that slowly built up over the past few weeks, and I finally got the sense to go to the ER at the hospital this past Sunday.
My doc had (before) put me on Mellaril along with my clonazepam and Prozac. The Mellaril did *nothing*, even at high doses like 200+ mg's. It was like taking a placebo. Being so anxious because of that, I gobbled up all of my clonazepam quickly. Then, over the weeks, *it* got worse. Everything was calling my name out...while I was driving, I thought if I just drove over a guardrail at the bridge that would be it....even while at the hospital, I examined the container of "sharps" waste (used needles, etc.) and thought about the worst...at home *always* thinking of knives, afraid to touch them for fear of what I might do. I couldn't even sit down in one place for more than a few minutes, and felt like hollering. I'd lay in bed, humming some weird moan while rocking back and forth. I was as *suicidal* as much as I have ever been. I was also very scared because I was just on Prozac, now, alone.
So, I got lucky and the doctor didn't take too long. He prescribed 2mg's of Risperdal a day, and 2mg's of clonazepam a day. He said to follow up with my doctor, asap. So, I got the meds and they worked *wonderful*. I broke out of my spell, and became a semblance of the person I used to be, slowly more all the time.
I go to the doctor tomorrow, and along with the meds the ER doc prescribed, I am also going to ask for a few other ones on top of the my regular Prozac, and maybe even ditch it as it left me too scared and close to death by itself. I really don't get and buy this sh*t that doctors spew out about SSRI's being 'good' for anxiety, Bull. I was in a bizarre catatonic-like world of anger and pain when I was on it alone. I have had similar reactions on just Effexor as well. So, I am going to ask about adding Remeron as well as Depakote/Epival, and anything else I can think of. This must have been one of my closest experiences with death.
Any comments about the meds would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks,
Jay
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