Posted by francesco on February 13, 2004, at 13:49:06
In reply to Re: only benzos ? » francesco, posted by Sad Panda on February 12, 2004, at 8:12:41
> Since you had some success with Clomipramine(Anafranil) & mannaged to get a degree while on it have you considered some of the secondary TCA's with less side effects like Desipramine & Nortriptyline? What can you actually get in Italy?
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> Cheers,
> Panda.ramine(Anafranil) & mannaged to get a degree while on it have you considered some of the secondary TCA's with less side effects like Desipramine & Nortriptyline? What can you actually get in Italy?
Hi Panda, Desipramine and Nortriptyline are worth of a trial ... actually I tried Desipramine but just for a few days at a very low dosage ... it wasn't bad, I have to say, but I suspect that Clomipramine helped more with my concentration issues. Anyway, I was quite happy while on Desipramine, having positive feelings toward others, but in a quite dumb way. I have had also problems with erection but in that period I was taking also meds for prostatis that I suspect could have contributed to the problem. Then I started Remeron and my state precipitated, spaciness, sleepiness and confusion were making me depressed ... So I quit Remeron after five or six days and went back to desipramine alone. I can't remember at that moment which was the problem that convinced me to quit also desipramine (maybe sexual dysfunction). In that period I had been prescribed also a mood stabilizer (Trileptal) which I stupidly 'forgot' to take. I can remember a night when I was very very impaired by Remeron and I took Trileptal to see if it could help. It helped within an hour but I'm a sucker, I refused to take the mood stabilizer on a regular basis because I didn't accept my psychiatrist's diagnosis which is more focused on mood problems than on attentional problems. Sorry, I rambled a bit, I'm taking xanax and I think it's contributing to my 'extroverted writing'. I wrote some embarassing mails in this period, I have read somewhere that xanax can do this to borderline personalities. There seems to be a great overlap between BP II, adhd, and bpd and I think now that I have some BP traits (never self mutilated anyway or things like that).
To answer your question ... I just don't know what I'll do, first of all I want to recover from the withdrawal from the damned Parmodalin. I'm still confused if I don't take xanax, I have troubles with coordination and muscle strenght, I pray God this has nothing to do with the trifluoperazine which was in the compound and that it's only in my head. When I'll be back, hoping I'll be back, I would be quite happy and I could reconsider taking meds ... Clomipramine is an option, Effexor is another, Desipramine and Imipramine why not ? But I have to take the mood stabilizer if I want to take antidepressants or I will go mad for sure. In Italy I can get all the SSRIs and all the TCAs, not MAOIs and not RIMAs, maybe Nardil but it could be quite expensive because I have to buy it in the Vatican Pharmacy, which is ... abroad, even if in Rome.
I'm a bit worry for the this withdrawal, I have played too much with my brain in the last period. If I decide to come back to meds I want to take them in the right way, but I'm scared anyway because I had horrible experiences with meds in the last 14 months or so. I have read extracts of books like "Prozac, Panacea or Pandora" and I think it's not just crap, I've been there ... I drank a lot more when I was on Anafranil and I was hostile and shy, I became manic on Paxil, and without meds I'm not that horrible, just lacking organization and self control in minor issues. So, my question is yet: to med or not to med ?
Sorry for this very long reply, I really appreciate your concern and suggestions : )
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