Posted by kelly7707 on February 1, 2004, at 12:21:34
In reply to Sad story of Effexor gone wrong, posted by Roomy on January 30, 2004, at 6:18:03
> I apologize ahead of time for this lenghthy story but I need to share it to make myself feel better.
> My sis-in-law, her hubby, and their two children lived only 1/2 hr away. Our girls are 4 months apart in age so they are close cousins and we all spend alot of time together. Boyde, a very kind man, hard worker, overly loud and friendly (after a few drinks esp,) became withdrawn, paranoid, and downright angry in only a few short months. His personality changed so much that he even told his wife to not leave him home alone with the kids for fear that he may harm them. Long story, short, he shot and killed himself one year ago. The family moved away so as to not live in the same house. Not too far away, so we still get together quite often. About 2-3 weeks ago, she came to me with a question. This was at the peak of my Effexor withdrawl. I had been on the drug for about 7 years. Her question to me was, "You have been on an anti-depressant, give me some advise as to which drug to get my son on. He has gone to a doctor and started up one but I want to know your opinion. Is it a good one?" I was afraid to ask. Yep! Effexor!!!! When I asked her WHY? Why Effexor of all the drugs out there? She told me that when the police gave her back all of Boyd's personal belongings about 6 months ago, after all the police investigations, one of the things they gave her was his partially used bottle of Effexor. She didnt even know he was on it. She doesnt know why the doctor would put her son on it, since it OBVIOUSLY didnt work for Boyd. My question is, WAS he taking it and stopped??? Was it the withdrawl that made him kill himself? It certainly explains the nightmares I have been having over and over. The same stupid voice, chanting and laughing "ya should have talked to him! ya should have talked to him!!! hahahahaha" <- thats just sick and wrong. The same voice. Any dream, every dream, the voice is always there and always says that same thing! It's making me lose my mind! Now I have to figure out a way to get my nephew off Effexor.
> -I have been drug free for one month exactly. I feel better now. If the voice in my dreams would go away, I would be downright perfect!!!
> -Thanks for reading along. I just had to vent this.
> -RoomyRoomy, I am at a loss for words, but feel I should at least tell you that my heart is out for you. That voice WILL go away, but maybe you need to talk to someone about how you are feeling about this...sort through the guilt you are feeling and then maybe that awful voice will go away. Like the other reply to your post said, you can't control someone attempting or going through with suicide...it is impossible to control everything...it was OUT of your control and you are not to blame. But I am sure I'd feel the same way. Like I said, I think you need to talk to someone and get some of it sorted out in your head. I am sure it helped bringing it up on here and venting it...but it might take more than that.
Good luck, and I am thinking of you too.
Kelly-effexor free for about 6 weeks.
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