Posted by scott-d-o on January 22, 2004, at 23:25:02
In reply to Re: Pseudo Amphets., posted by SandyWeb on January 22, 2004, at 19:02:23
> Hi again!
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> I don't think I'm going to ask my doctor for stimulants. The last time I saw her, she practically yelled at me that I was a walking poly-pharmacy. Then she began telling me how I would be going into my friends' medicine cabinets and popping a pill here and a pill there. Needless to say, I was shocked and humiliated when she spoke that way to me. But I have the problem of not being able to stand up for myself. So I just said that I wouldn't do that. But she acted so unprofessionally, and I'm embarrassed enough that I'm on any meds at all. Does she think that I enjoy coming in every two months to get a fresh new supply of pills to help me cope with life?? I feel like a total loser, but I put on a brave little face as if I'm doing great. *sigh*
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> In fact, I'm only on 4 meds: 60mg Celexa, 1600mg Neurontin, 15mg Remeron (for sleep and to reverse the diarrhea from Celexa), and Inderal LA 160mg (to stop the high blood pressure from the Celexa).
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> Even though I know stimulants would help me....and I REALLY could use the help with my focus right now because I'm a 38-year old full-time University student.....I would feel like a drug-seeking addict if I asked for a stimulant or even tried to tell her that I think I have ADD. I made the mistake of admitting to doing crank years ago, and now she won't even give me Ativan. *sigh*
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> I guess I'll continue to self-medicate with the pseudoephedrine. It helps when I'm starting my day, but I find that I crash really badly in the afternoon. I don't like that at all. And I don't know if taking the psuedoephedrine will be dangerous to me in the long run.
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> I wish I had a back-bone.
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> Sandy
>I had no doubt pseudoephedrine would cause mania due to it's noradrenergic properties. The reason I said it wouldn't work for ADD is due to it's lack of dopaminergic properties. If mania is all you are looking for, it should work well for you.
Perhaps you should look for a new pdoc. Just don't schedule another appointment at your next visit, say you need to check your schedule and then say that you will call when you know. Then just don't call; not much of a backbone required for that. I know I wouldn't stand for a pdoc who would make me feel humiliated for asking them to consider a certain medication, whatever it may be. I went through three pdocs who were the same way before I was able to settle with one that was reasonable. Obviously I would leave out your experiences with crank with your new pdoc. There is no reason you should be treated any differently because of this, unless you really feel that you would not be able to control yourself if prescribed such a medication. Just be honest with yourself. I used to have a cocaine problem but am now prescribed Klonopin and Ritalin and haven't even considered abusing either.
If there is a respected medical university near you, try to get a recommendation from them; that worked for me. Anyhow, it's not like any of the meds you are taking now are controlled substances, so your new doctor would most likely have no problem placing you right back on the ones you wish to keep.
good luck w/whatever u decide
scott
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