Posted by flyingdreams on January 16, 2004, at 15:35:12
Depression - My Experience
Ok, yeh I got depressed and I needed medication, but for how long I ask you? 14 years? I don't think so. Trama happened in my life and I needed help. Medication was the answer according to the doctors. Ok, maybe so, or maybe I just needed alot of support people around me and shoulders to cry on? Or maybe meds for a year or so, but certainly not 14. Well that what the doctors lead me to believe. Well that's the past, bygones be bygones. Here and now, I'm finally getting off the anti-depressants (Prozac then Effexor). I am going thru withdrawls so bad that I feel like a drug addict getting off Cocaine or some other evil drug! Now, what does that tell you? This drug I've been taking for 14 yrs has done something really bad to my body! Doesn't take a genius to figure that one out! So all this time the doctors, and there have been a ton of them, have been telling me they are helping me? Well let's see. Before medication take a look at what I did: I flew a Cessna solo several times, I went to Europe for 14 days by myself and traveled 7 countries, I went to college by myself in another state, I made a good living for my age group. Now, take a look at what I do: nothing! In fact, going to the local store causes me great anxiety! Now it doesn't take a genius to figure out the medication is not helping, in fact it is doing quite the opposite! Only having been off the medication for a couple of days, I am now seeing this light. But I must say the fear and withdrawls are causing me temptation to go back on the medication. See this is what the doctors and drug companies are banking on. They know I will go back to their drugs as I have many times. They have made this medication addictive but claim it is not. It's all hush, hush. But I am living proof this is a lie. See this is not the first attempt at getting off these medications! So I am writing this in attempt to fight back, to let others know they are all lies, so you too can see the light I am finally seeing now. If only someone else had shown me this light, what would have come of the last 14 yrs for me? Look back to what I accomplished before medications! Just image what would have come of this person without medications? Now I'm trying to get back some of what I've lost. But I must say fear is coming, it has been so long that I've been really me. Who am I without medication? That's another thing robbed of me from meds, my memory, short and long time memory. The drug companies don't want you to know that. Now I must break, for a symptom of my withdrawls causes me to run to the bathroom. Ok, I'm back. Might I add, it's 5 in the morning and I haven't slept since the day before? Another withdrawl. Sleepy all day and insomnia when I'm suppose to be asleep. Two days before that I slept all day and all night. Withdrawls, they are hoping this will break me and cause me to go back to the expensive medications that the drug companies are getting rich off. Have I mentioned the price of these medications? Oh yeh, they are making a pretty penny off of many people putting these scare tactics into place. They are taking advantage of the weak. And lately, in recent years, the advertising on tv is discusting to say the very least. They are trying to make normal innocent people think they too are depressed and need medication! They are brainwashing millions of innocent tv viewers into this same trap I fell into 14 yrs ago. So pray for me, pray I get over the withdrawls, pray I can get thru it and have the confidence to be the real me once again. The me I was 14 yrs ago. That I can remember who that was. The memory is such a weak one. Will it come back? Or have they caused me brain damage too? Oh yeh, that's another thing they don't want you to know. Another hush, hush. Who knows what these drugs do long term. Pray for me and I'll pray that you too can see the light.... May you be blessed, healthy, happy and drug free! No more "happy" pills for me!
poster:flyingdreams
thread:301710
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