Posted by ian24 on January 9, 2004, at 19:13:01
In reply to Re: sexual compulsives » ian24, posted by Mimi on January 9, 2004, at 17:19:03
Yeah, it's behaviral unless I have BP which I doubt bc someone may have noticed I hope. I had a severley menatlly ill mom, used alcohol heavily from 13 to 25 . I think it is simply reality avoidance. Instead of going to meetings going out etc I do porn and etc. It also is extremely engrossing and proly sets off little dope hits in my brain. So what begins as an aesy way to not feel emotions or not risk being out there , it eventually becomes totally out of control. Like I just spent a lot of time looking at nekkid women and I realized this is so lame this is so obviously a way that i can sit at home alone and not go crazy. I also think Klonopin enables me to isolate without going crazy because it numbs me.Oh and I was thinking I do want "intimacy" but can't cope with it so I try to get it fro sex. Like I went to a massage parlor and I felt like the massage was "loving " somehow. But it's not it's tawdry and awful. OK , hope no on knows who I am. LOL
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