Posted by katia on January 3, 2004, at 19:33:43
In reply to Re: depersonalization? derealization? » JohnFromCalifornia, posted by Emme on January 2, 2004, at 23:53:56
This is a timely thread as I've been having this lately too. It hasn't happened in a long long while. I"m 33 and I used to have this derealization/disassociation a lot as a kid and teenager, which leads to a panic attack. Don't know the correct term for it, but what I've experienced sounds similar to what you have. I've been under a lot of stress too lately and very busy. I'm on Lamictal and Lithium and wonder if it's the Lam. causing anxiety. I just have to stay calm during it knowing I'm not going crazy, but it'll pass. I wait tables and it happened at work. It's such a strange feeling and so hard to describe. It happens suddenly - I was walking to a table to greet them and it felt like I walked into a dream and was outside my body simultaneously. I remained calm and just said what I always say but it didn't feel like it was coming from my mouth. I've been in and out of this state for awhile now - week(s)? it's so bizarre. It's also very wierd and I get freaked out that my visual consciousness of the world somehow is behind my eyes - these two holes - like there's this body underneath this visual - I can't explain it. And this is without drugs!. Lately, the anxiety has led to outbursts of rage and anger/agitation like an uncontrollable temper tantrum.
As of today, I got the rash from Lamictal - pretty scary. I hope that it is the benign type. I'm off of Lamictal as of tomorrow as I already took it today before I noticed the rash. It's all over my body.
Katia
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