Posted by KimberlyDi on December 29, 2003, at 17:02:50
In reply to first clean xmas, posted by squids on December 25, 2003, at 17:46:43
Isn't it great? You're doing fabulous. I remember my first sober xmas after 1997's "the year from hell". stable emotions, secure job, renewed ties with family, making amends, buying xmas presents for others... i didn't isolate, ashamed, self-medicating to drown my self-hatred.
Congrats
> This is the first clean xmas I've hae in god knows how many years. My usual routine was to take everything I could find: Nyquil, valium, xanax, vicodins, and heroin to induce unconscioussness or semi conscious for several days. Today I admit I was tempted more than once, but stopped myself from taking any action.
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> This morning I had to get up early to go visit a friend in jail. Wonderful way to spend xmas morning. But I decided instead of hating it, I would wish everyone a merry xmas - no matter how much of an a**hole they are to me. I think it was a pretty good ideaa for my personal state of mind. And then I talked to my incarcerated friend and cheered him up a great deal by visiting him today. That made me feel really good and right now I have no desire to do drugs or be unconscious. In fact I think I'll go out and see if I can make someone else's day.
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> Crazy aint it...
poster:KimberlyDi
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