Posted by miss amor on December 15, 2003, at 16:38:18
Just wanted a little advice, i am pretty new to the site and am amazed at how knowledgable many of you are. i on the other hand havent really done very much research on my own disorders or medicines. until very recently i thought the dr would surely do the right thing for me and have since been let down. so my question is this: i have gad, ocd. was thought to have add, but strongly disagree with this. i have taken benzo. meds and ssui's in past. that is actually why i found this site, i was looking for opinions on the lastest drug my dr suggested-lexapro. and from what i found here made my own decision not to even try it out. i was first prescribed prozac at age 21 and it did not work well with me and i didnt even take it an entire month. that was the first med i had tried and i thought screw this, and didnt even bring up meds for a yr and half. my dr prescribed klonopin to me .5mg 2xday. he said was very low dose and should help with my anxiety and ocd. he said more the anxiety we were trying to treat. ( i cant seem if i get very anxious and then began my obsessing/compulsing or if all the obs/comp is what makes me anxious??) i was very anxious to try any meds, but also trusted mr dr. ( had been dr 15+ yrs.) the klonopin (or clonzepam) did seem to work really well and i took it consistantly for 2 months, then went to india for a trip and decided not to take it at all. which worked out fine. i had no side effects or withdrawls or anything like that. so about 4 months after returning from travels i moved, got new job and dr. my anxiety was bascially paralyzing me and had panic attack (a whole new thing to me.) so i then asked my new dr to prescribe klonopin to me. she did with several refills and said i should taper off when my anxiety subsides. i took the klonopin daily for four months and called her one day when i had a horrible panic attack. i just told her that i dont think i should have them if i am being treated with med. and taking it properly (before i had been a little sparatic and taking lots of med holidays.) she called in a prescription for xanax and also paxil. i really knew nothing of paxil and thought it was probably like klonopin. i went to website and was happy to take it! i thought it looked great. it made me feel so crazy i couldnt stand it. it also lasted all day and my se's would barely subside even late in the day. after one week i couldnt do it anymore, i hated the way i felt. so i called her and left a message that the paxil was too crazy for me and i would resume taking klonopin. when her nurse returned my phone call i found that she had left the country for holiday. ( this was very recent) so her associate called me back and i was very freaked out that the dr. would give me such a med, tell me nothing of what i should expect from taking it and leave the country. the new dr. called in xanax and said to quit taking the paxil and set an appt with her for following week. when i went to appt. i told her i wanted to keep taking klonopin (1mg per day) and xanax when needed. she flipped out and said they were so addictive and made me feel really weird. she then gave me prescription for effexer (i said no) then zoloft ( i said no) then lexapro~she promised it wasnt like other ssui. she kept refusing to give me the medicine i asked for (klonopin.) so thats when i researched lexapro and found such horrible se's that i called her and told her no i wasnt filling it or taking it. i explained how klonopin was doing really well just when i had extreme anxiety or panic it didnt help that so i would take xanax or alprolzam when i needed it. she thought i had lost my mind and acted like i was trying to get drugs to either get high? or sell? thats what i figured. if i wanted to get f*cked up id take some of the paxil or prozac i have and drink a bottle of wine. my question is do some ppl not have the same drawing to become addicted. i never asked for an increase and have yet (month 5) on klonopin developed tolerance. also i took ritalin for 1.5 yrs and the dose never increased and i never abused it, like some ppl do with this type of drug. also when i get pain meds i dont even take them, probably 1/4 of the recommended dose. and i think both of those drugs are considered addictive. i just am wondering if i am kidding myself that i am not going to get addicted to any meds. i have just started therapy and plan to get taper off if needs be when i feel the time is appropiate. i dont plan to take anything besides my liquid vitamin every day for the rest of my life. i anticipate your responses. thanks in advance.
poster:miss amor
thread:290163
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