Posted by st@cy on December 13, 2003, at 2:25:09
In reply to Re: Sulpiride dosage , posted by jimmygold70 on March 1, 2001, at 19:42:32
Since i was fifteen i've been suffering from things like being so nervous around people bc i'm afraid they will think i'm dull or wierd or something. The only ppl i've felt comfortable around are the few that (and i know this sounds terrible, but it's how i feel) the few that i see myself as better than. i can't talk to ppl bc i can't follow conversations bc i'm too busy trying to analyze things and thinking. i get so frustrated with myself. I spend so much time trying to look perfect bc i think i can't wow ppl with my personality, so i might as well fool them with my looks, but the second they talk to me they will know i'm just dull and nervous and scared and just not someone that they want to be friends with. i even remember thinking: if i lose weight and look perfect, maybe other ppl will feel intimidated by me and i won't be the one that has to be nervous all the time. i avoid going places and doing things bc i feel so uncomfortable unless i'm with someone i know that can kind of take the heat for me. i feel alone all the time too. like, everyone else can feel so comfortable, but i see life outside the box. i started looking into what my problem was bc i got scared when i started turning to alcohol and pills to feel better and less inhibited. please tell me what you guys think and what i should do. all i want is to live my life and stop dealing with this every minute of everyday. for the longest time i thought that nobody could understand.
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