Posted by mypoptartishot on December 6, 2003, at 13:23:54
i'm writing this before i go to work.
i need an outlet. i need people to tell me if what i'm feeling is normal. i need to be relieved of what ales me.
i don't know. i have anxiety.. and right now it's getting to me.
in late august, i was began freaking out over nothing. i thought was pregnant, i had AIDS, a heart murmur, a brain tumor, and kidney failure or something awful. i couldn't go to work because of my panic attacks. luckily, my managers rule and they dealt with it for the while that it happened. i was put on 25 mgs of zoloft for my anxiety. i've heard the horror stories of withdrawal so i decided to just let it stay at that.
after a while, i started feeling normal.. it took about a month before the 'surreal feeling' went away. i did good through most of october and november.. and honestly, up until recently i've been good.
but lately, things have popped into my head and began drilling at my mind.
do i have AIDS ? what about that new strand of the flu ? is it deadly ?
i know i don't have any of these things.. but.. it still bugs me.. because.. there's always the CHANCE, right ?
i keep making jokes to my boyfriend about it.
i told him i thought i had AIDS. he said it was rediculous. he's right.
but.. there's still the chance, i guess.
i don't know.
i shouldn't diagnose myself with anything at this point..
because i'm probably just a hypochondriac with the common cold..
but i'm starting to feel surreal again.. everything feels fake..
and it's like i'm in a constant panic.
so.. could someone help me deal with this ?
should i up my medication ?
i thank anyone willing to read this
poster:mypoptartishot
thread:287153
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20031202/msgs/287153.html