Posted by zinya on November 14, 2003, at 18:36:42
In reply to Effexor tapering isn't like falling off the wagon » zinya, posted by KimberlyDi on November 10, 2003, at 14:09:16
hi Kim!
That last post of mine was, unwittingly, on the edge of a cybermuda triangle blackout... My internal computer 'clock' battery died, my e-mail and internet were both 'corrupted' and after my 'puter spending the whole week in the "mind shop" (as opposed to body shop), to the tune of $300, i've lost ALL my internet bookmarks/links and my e-mail address book -- 4 years' worth of accumulated and organized accesses to everything under the sun, gone...
erg, aargh, ugh...
i'm back but also with bummer headache and backache so i'll be short ... just to say 'hi' and sign in... the usual ups and downs of life thus being all i have to report... only Effexor-related in the sense that -- as i reported last weekend in those posts -- this whole barrage of carpal tunnel and foot torn-ligament reactivation seems to be related to the paresthesias (nerve-frying) symptom of Eff. w/d...
I'm still down to 9 mg - since about 10 days ago... and i forget or fall asleep too early just enough nights that i don't have to program in the next stage which is skipping the 9 mg dose every other night ... But after that happened again 2 nights ago, i still was vulnerable enough to feel zappy stuff by last night and know i couldn't go two nights yet without it... I'll keep doing it like this for a while longer...
The loss of my whole computer network of connections this week was making me feel amputated, addicted to internet needing an IA group to attend, etc., all week but it still didn't prep me for last night when i actually came home with "repaired" 'puter and was faced with the reality of not only no addresses/bookmarking but also "upgraded" (hah!) versions of both Internet Explorer and Outlook Exp the guy had installed upon claiming my corrupted programs were unrecoverable ... And so i don't know my way around the new programs either -- as well as all that sense of loss (of info) and i just found myself completely retapped into the grief of my mom's loss (which is now 16 months ago) and weeping ... probably worse due to only 4 hrs sleep the night before for some reason - unusually little sleep for me in recent times ...
so i'm kind of a mess :) ... but i did force myself this week, wrist and ankle braces notwithstanding, to build a couple more of the shelves i'd been unable to have even the will to do since moving in here with my mom, and then never could manage cuz i'd no more than bought this house for her and moved us both in her (she had alzheimer's) than came the belated diagnosis that she had cancer as well... And it's only been since mid-Sept (not coincidentally, i think, AFTER i started tapering down from Effexor on Sept 3) that i'd finally actually started "moving in' to this home which i still have days of wondering why i'm living here.... But i'm not depressed anymore, not in the way that i may have been (i'm not sure any more what it was) all last winter and spring, at least i have the will to make this house into a home and feel 'moved into'...especially with bunches of friends descending here at christmas time and the place still in chaos... But still any loss, like this loss of computer and all access #s for people, taps me back into such grief...
Did sleep last night but today awoke with one of these outrageous left-temple headaches that i get (since before Effexor) and tend to last 3 days...
okay, i'm repeating myself. Enough.. This was only supposed to be a Hi! back to you, dear Kim... and hope all's going well on your own offramp since you last wrote...
hugs to Kim and all,
zinya
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