Posted by octiigon on November 13, 2003, at 6:44:14
In reply to dont know where to go from here, posted by anks on November 10, 2003, at 21:46:46
I may only be 19.... but from the beginning my life started off "bumpy and rigid".
I've always been isolated from everyone else as well..... Due to the fact I've been abused in some way by every single person I've let close to me.
Yes I do get lonely, I don't even know how I do it. I have no friends, rarely family contacts me, and the roommates I have think I'm just a nutcase. Days just seem to pass by at light speed... and I wait for a day when I can finally return to society and have continual social contact with someone and establish a new relationship(hopefully...).
Well, In my case my therapist/psychologist never really figured out what was/is wrong with me. I have such huge mood swings that I constantly shifted (i'm more stable now) from a huge "high" to ultimate "low". I suggested that it was bipolar but they changed so often it couldn't be classified.... Anyway my point is that the fact that your here writing shows that you truly do want to live... We're all survivors, with different methods/strategies of surviving. I am actually quite surprised i've lasted this long to be honest, but when I think about it... it wasn't all that hard.
I had to learn to cope with my self, as i'm my biggest critic. I also had to learn to let go of my past.... I can tell you one thing... if I'd had more faith in God back then, it would have been a whole lot easier...
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