Posted by DharmaMama on October 23, 2003, at 9:48:24
In reply to Re: Topamax - Update, posted by Sabina on October 22, 2003, at 15:12:44
Here is my previous post: "I was placed on Topamax yesterday. Doing the 25mg one week, then 50 next, 75 next and so on. Diagnoses, they have not diagnosed me. I have read many threads. My worries: 1) Forgetting things! As it is my mind is racing 24/7 which leads to forgetting things, losing things, memory loss and having a hard time getting to sleep. How common is this, does it subside? 2) The idea of weight loss is great. In the past 9 months I have gained 20 lbs, I use to average around 100. When stopping Top. (and not starting anything else), how many gained weight? 3) I have read on Top. website, "Do not take if you plan on becoming pregnant." Does anyone know if this med. causes damage to rep. system in females? Should one take precaution like those who take Accutane? There is a possibility we may want more kids. Sorry for the lengthy post, TIA."
As I said, I have not been diagnosed. A doc placed me on Topamax as a mood stabilizer. I am 26. I have social anxiety, bad temper, I have been depressed for as long as I can remember. I do exceptionally well at covering it up, even to myself. I have been in and out of therapy since 12. I have only been diagnosed with depression. On and off meds. I do not like taking meds. I was adopted at birth. Recently found out my mother died in '95 from apparent suicide heroin overdose. She was always depressed as well. I constantly think of suicide and have visions of the act in my mind. I self-mutilate. I often think to myself and find myself speaking my thoughts out loud. Embarassing. I think negatively of my looks.
Overall, this has been a frustrating part of life. I am sure we all know and experience this. So far, Topamax has been good. Yes it is early. We are all different. Topamax may be for some and may not be for others. We just need to find out what is right for each of us.
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