Posted by Braxl on October 22, 2003, at 16:19:59
Howdy All,
I found this board 2 days ago--the day I started on Lexapro. I was doing a web search looking for info and found all of you! You all seem very supportive of each other and I think that's great!
I went to my pdoc because I'd lived with depression for 15+ years and never sought help. I had it all though--disinterest in life, suicidal, fits of anger, etc. A blow out with my girlfriend over something minor finally made me decide to seek help.
Ok, so it's my second day on 10mg, and I'm starting to feel it already. The first day I had nausea that lasted only 3 hours. Yesterday I had a headache that went away with rest. I've felt ever so slightly tired after each time taking it. Today I feel a little spacey, things aren't bothering me like they used to. I think my mood is changing.My question to all of you is: were you apprehensive about getting help either through Lexapro or counseling? I ask because I am an artist. This depressed, loathing feeling is all I've ever known. At the same time I feel this has given me my creativity. Like being "crazy" had given me an identity. And I don't mean to use the word crazy in an insulting manner. What I mean is I wonder if coming back to center will make me less creative? Don't get me wrong though, feeling depressed most of the time isn't fun either.
Have any of you wrestled with this? Being afraid of what is to come, even if it promises to be good?
poster:Braxl
thread:271996
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