Posted by juanantoniod on October 11, 2003, at 17:49:39
Hello all,
I have something that I've been struggling with that I want to get your opinions on. Any help will be greatly appreciated.
Most days I don’t feel like getting out of bed, so I lay around my apartment all day. I can’t sleep during the day so I just lay there thinking or whatever. I also do not eat. I’ve been diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder, Recurrent and am on 3 ADs (Wellbutrin+Remeron+Paxil) plus Ritalin. My best friend and companion died in December.
This doesn’t feel like the depression I’ve felt in the past so I’m wondering if it is still mourning or if it is depression. I don’t feel suicidal so it doesn’t seem like depression. Is it something I should be working with my psychiatrist and therapist on? (My therapist just decreased our appointments to every other week because he thinks I’m doing better.) Is this something that I should go to the hospital for?
I have Methadone prescribed for pain and I find for some reason that, if I can motivate myself enough to get out of bed and take some (20mg) with the Ritalin (20mg), about an hour later, I can feel good enough to get up and at least chat online or do something. It doesn’t make me feel euphoric or high, it just does enough to get me up. I’m kind of afraid of becoming physically addicted to the Methadone, but if it is actually helping me cope, then I don’t care. Is this helpful or detrimental in the long run? Should I keep taking it for this or find another way to cope?
I am on disability so I don’t work and I really don’t have much going on in my life. I feel like my best friend was my life and that’s been taken away.
I hope that someone can give me some insight into what is going on. I’m struggling and am grateful for your input.
Thanks for reading this.
Antonio
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