Posted by lil' jimi on September 17, 2003, at 9:32:59
In reply to Bad day already!!!, posted by Mattsit on September 17, 2003, at 7:50:44
hi Mattsit,
sorry to hear it's going so rough for you ...
> Day 6 of Lexapro...And Im very anxious this morning...worrying about losing my job, not losing my job, having to find a new job, how much i hate my current job, how much i dont want to lose my current job....
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> Get my point? I worry about EVERY possible thing, even if the worries contridict themselves...that does NOT make sense...I hope the Lexapro helps me soon...I realize it may be a few weeks, but Im really hoping.
>
> Am I just lazy, or am I crazy??!?!?!?!?hazy? ... ...
... ... for me it was my 1st, 7 or 8 days which were my worst ... ... another week after that and i was much better .... ....... i have learned a lot about anxiety from our lexapro users who suffer from it ... from reading our posts it seems to me like lexapro is harder to adapt to for them ... ... because, i don't suffer from anxiety, but i found out about it first-hand when my lex SEs gave me panic attacks ... ... this left me with an impression of what this must be like for someone already struggling with anxiety ... ...
.. ... .. my first couple of weeks, especially my first week on lexapro, i was very unmotivated ... ... doing anything was hard .. .. thinking about doing anything was extremely hard ... i felt like resistance and inertia incarnate ... ...
... ... ... so i wouldn't say you are lazy ... ... you just feel lazy ... ... which Can make you feel crazy ... ... especially when those anxieties are being so contradictory ... those irrational anxieties! what's got into them !... but you're more crazed (by lex SEs) than crazy ... ... that's my bet ...hang in there!
posts lately from our more anxious folks remind me of some older posts about something they called "diurnal variation" ... ... which implies a daily mood cycle ... ... ...
... Bela's post and it's follow ups from July explains it better than i could:
see:
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20030728/msgs/246127.html... and then here lately a few posters have mentioned anxiety attacks in the morning, before they can even get out of bed ... ...
... while other posters offered that their anxiety only abates just as they go to bed at night ... ... the combination looks like a daily cycle, to me ...
... ... what i find striking about this is when we consider that the reason our species has to sleep every night is so we can give our bodies down time in order to catch up on neurotransmitter production ... ... so who'd want to have to face a new day when it's just going to mess up all that good work we spent all night doing? ... .. ... HA!... actually it seems to me you make a rational and valid point ... ....
... work, like maybe, sucks ?
... ... what do they have you doing there ?
... if your job security is an issue, you might be able to document your condition and your medical requirement for medication ... ... our medical condition(s) are not legitimate (legal?) reasons for dismissal ... ...try to take it easy on yourself ...
... and post often ... especially if it can help make you feel better!
~ jim
poster:lil' jimi
thread:109458
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20030917/msgs/260958.html