Posted by KimberlyDi on September 16, 2003, at 18:14:51
In reply to Bad Thoughts about hurting people on Zoloft, posted by JBert on September 15, 2003, at 14:23:43
Not long ago, I was driving along and came to a slippery spot in the road on a wide sweeping turn. Thoughts turn to "boy, this would be a bad spot for an oil spill" to "wonder how someone could pull that off w/o getting caught". Think, sabotaging a road, instantly ruining lives, by my own actions. what upset me was that, while emotionally cushioned/detached on AD's, that moral link in my mind to outrage for even thinking such a thing.. it was missing. Do I want to do it? heck no. To wake up and smell the coffee someday to realize, "dear lord, i'm a monster for doing that". I feel terrible pain and guilt for accidentally hitting a stray cat on a road.
That was just a disturbing randon thought. If you get the urge to actually do something, get the help of a therapist, or someone. Find alternate ways to re-direct anger. You have options if it is really worrying you.Best Wishes,
KDi in Texas
> This all started out because out of nowhere I started having bad thoughts like I was going to hurt someone after I was prescribed Paxil and did not really need to take it(misdiagnosed was worrying a lot) I went to the doctor and was presrcibed Zoloft and have been on it for over `6weeks now and this has done nothing but gotten worse. I was having anxiety and these thoughts and the anxiety is gone now but the thoughts are still there and getting worse. I havent done anything but I feel like I dont know if I want to or not even though deep down I know I dont want to. When I am doing good I know I would never do anything but when I am doing bad I have a really hard time believing that I wont even though I never do. Has anyone else ever had or seen this? If so what was or is being done? Thanks in advance.
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