Posted by Donna Louise on September 10, 2003, at 8:47:53
Dear fellow psycho sufferers,
I am getting a little comfort knowing I am not alone on this board. i am not doing so well right now. I was on 150mg zoloft, and am still on 10mg buspar BID, and 200-300 provigil. I was having such extreme apathy from the zoloft that I gained some weight from lack of activity. With pdoc help, I lowered to 50mg and felt alot better but then decided to quit the zolot and see how I did on just the buspar and provigil. I guess I just have run of the mill depression and anxiety. I can't get any futher off the zoloft than 25 mg without all the withdrawal symptoms but that was far enough for return of mental illness, I guess. I would rather feel all this pain than not feel anything though. My pdoc wants me to go back on the zoloft until my next appt at the end of the month and then she wants to try lamictil. I have wondered if a mood stabilizer would allow me to get off this deadening SSRI (I have tried them all, I guess paxil works the best). I have tried many times to quit the SSRI's with no success. I had just hoped that this time the buspar and provigil would be enough. And it is better than without it. Maybe I should just roll with the bad times. I am not suicidal. But as you can see, not thinking too well. I do endurance riding, horseback for 100 miles at a time, and have to be able to haul horses and such and the anxiety has to be kept at bay. I am a recovering drug addict for 18 years and not sure any of the benzos would be an option as I self medicated heavily with them. And they seem to have a rebound depression effect on me anyway. I will stop now. I am embarrased by all this rambling. Suggestions welcome. Thanks.Donna
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