Posted by Francesco on September 4, 2003, at 5:28:01
In reply to Off meds = inattentive, on Anafranil = overfocused » Francesco , posted by DSCH on September 3, 2003, at 12:40:46
> Let me think about that some.
Thank you so much. I know you'll have something interesting to tell me : ) The most appropriate way to describe myself under Anafranil is "obsessive colpulsive personality disorder". I become very narrow-minded, I judge people very easily and in a very unpleasant way, every time I'm out I'm looking forward to go home and read my books or watch the movie I decided to see the day before (ok, this is caricature but it’s not so far from reality). I have trouble in switching from one thing to another. So I plan everything I want to do in advance (for ex. “I will wake up at ten and I’ll study from eleven to six, then I’ll watch a movie ‘till eight). But if something goes wrong (for ex. if a friend calls me) I become very irritated. I don’t want to say that Anafranil “create” my OCD features, but when I’m not on meds I’m too distracted to fix my mind on a particular obsession. My main problem when I’m not on meds is daydreaming: if my mood is good the “intrusive” ideas are pleasant, otherwise they aren’t. But I won’t call them “obsessions”.
> How is the Prozac coming along?
Oh, let’s say, I’m not having fun on it : ) I’m very weird when there people around me and very detached from reality. No anxiety so far, extreme tiredness, it’s like watching someone else’s life on TV. Last evening I went out with a friend of mine and it was not so bad (but I had to drink). I think the weirdness feeling will improve but I’m not so sure the same will happen for the emotional side. I don’t feel anxiety but I don’t feel almost anything. This allows me to do whatever I want, I suppose, but I’m not interested in doing anything in particular ...
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> Does your girlfriend know that you are taking it and if so is she being supportive?My girlfriend was actually a “kind of girfriend” ... my first day on Prozac we were on the phone and I talked to her in a very un-emphatic way about her (supposed) problems ... she got offended by it and now she doesn’t want to see me anymore (but we write each other by mail). Anyway I can understand her. As I said many times I don’t feel emphathy toward people when I’m on meds and people notice it ... I would have no problem in asking a mother who has lost his child: “Oh, that’s horrible ! but, tell me, how did he die ?” ... if you have no emotions, I suppose, you can’t understand other’s emotions
> How would you describe your reaction to Wellbutrin again?
The first days I was very calm. But the strangest thing it was I had nothing to say. Blank mind. But I was very active at the same time. I had that strange incident with the motorbyke and then went holidays (in greece). Then I stopped for a couple of day because I was not sure I wanted to take it while on vacation. Then I started again and a lot of strange things happened to me. I was more distracted than ever. I had a lot of energy but I was very absent minded at the same time. Anyway the trial didn’t last more than a week so I can’t say anything about it. After quitting it I’ve experienced the worst apathy I had experienced in a lot of time. I stayed two weeks at home without doing anything and then started prozac. But apathy is not my usual condition. Even if I don’t do anything my mind is “full of life”.
That’s all. Thank you so much for your attention. Can I post my e-mail here ?
Best wishes DSCH, the mere talking to you made me feel a lot better : )
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