Posted by Alone_in_a_Crowd on September 3, 2003, at 8:50:15
Greetings,I've taken quite a few different SSRI's and my vision gets extremely blurry. I'm a little short sighted and wear glasses when I drive at night or ride my motorcycle, but when taking an SSRI my vision is very blurred (especially at night).
I had the Lasix operation on my eyes a few years ago, so my vision is not too great at night anyway - but taking an SSRI makes it almost impossible to drive at night, and very dangerous to ride my motorcycle.
I'm extremely sensitive to medications in general (my metabolism is extremely fast), I feel completely different (over happy?) after just 1 20mg Prozac, 50mg Zoloft or ... I forget all the names I've tried.
I keep to myself a lot, spend a lot of time in my own head. It's not good to think so much. Not for me at least. It's always negative thoughts, suicide - anger at everything and everyone - hatred - etc.etc. The SSRI's makes me feel fake and happy when I know I'm not, but at least it keeps the bad thoughts away, sometime. When I speak to people I feel a smile in my face, but I don't know why I'm smiling, or why they are smiling!
A few years ago I tried some LSD in a club - my life has never been the same since. It triggered panic attacks I was unable to deal with at the time, thought I was going insane. Unfortunately I've learned since that I am not insane, sometimes I wish that I was tho - at least then I won't know what I'm thinking and all the thoughts can stop.
LSD can trigger mental illness in borderline cases, but I feel as tho my life has been on a downhill for the last 7 years. It's horrible, I don't want to be around people anymore and most times just wish I could build myself a little cabin in the woods and hide there from humanity for the rest of my life. But then I think about all the things I would miss out on, and then I think about why I'm thinking that way because there's not much that attracts me anyways etc.etc. Just a vicious circle of bad bad thoughts.
I get bored extremely quickly and can never concentrate on anything for very long. Ritalin helps, but my muscles don't agree. They become extremely stiff and cramp, even at low doses.
Anyways, I've babbled way to much. If someone can perhaps suggest a anti-depressant that will not blur my eyes - I will be eternally grateful.
Ciao.
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thread:256599
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