Posted by BarbaraCat on August 30, 2003, at 2:43:50
In reply to Re: Hysteria in Tsunami! » BarbaraCat, posted by katia on August 29, 2003, at 15:18:00
>>It's not so much fear as simply utter despair, with high energy.
**Yeah, sounds like mixed states. Welcome to the 'worst kind of bipolar or any other mental state' club. Truly, that's what 'they' say! At least you know it doesn't get worse than this and it sounds like you have a rapid cycling kind where you at least get a breather. Pity poor me who had to go through it year after year for months on end, no relief, no good days, only doom and panic. I marvel I'm still here.
The fear enters in when the despair and high energy turn into panic because you don't know what the hell is going on. I had no idea what was happening to me, that there was a name for it. I only knew that it didn't sound like any garden variety depression I'd ever heard of and the garden variety depression drugs were making it worse. I forget who said 'If you can name it, you can tame it'. I can't tell you how relieved I was the day I realized I had Bipolar Mixed States and was not instead lost and wandering around in Edgar Allen Poe's brain.
>>I think I feel frustrated because I don't have an outlet for these wild emotions. They need to come out. I'm trying to find healthy ways to do this.
**How about some bhastrika pranyama? Forgive me for explaining since I'm sure you know it, but any of those reading might be interested in how it's done cause it's a great release. It's known as the 'bellows breath'.
You sit or kneel with knees lower than hips so that your abdomen isn't compressed and raise your arms over your head with hands facing front and fingers spread open wide. All breathing is done from the nose. You vigorously pull your hands down in front of your shoulders closing them into fists and contracting the stomach to whoosh the air out of your nose.
Reach up while inhaling and filling the abdomen and lungs and spreading fingers open like in the beginning. The up and down makes one rep. It's like a bellows where you use the arms to pump the air in and out of the lungs. The whooshing out breath is emphasized cause it makes the correct inhale a natural response. It's moderately rapid with each rep lasting about 1 second. One breath cycle is 24 reps with 3 slow deep breaths in between each cycle. After about the 4th or 5th cycle I'm usually crying like a baby and rolling around on the floor kicking and drooling and IT FEELS SO GOOD to wring that crap out and get the oxygen in!!!
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