Posted by Peter on August 28, 2003, at 14:43:19
In reply to Re: HELP-NEED QUICK ADVICE!! » Ame Sans Vie, posted by blondegirl47 on August 28, 2003, at 13:22:44
> I agree with Ame Sans Vie, I didn't read very well that you were only taking it for 3 days. For me going cold turkey means sleeping most of the day. sorry
> Blondegirl
>>Well I had to taper off my 40mg dose when I used to take adderall continually for almost a year. But this time, when my pdoc said I could resume it, I took it every other day for a week, and THEN 3 days in a row (once I decided to stick with it).
>>But, anyway, it didn't work out. I ended up planning the whole trip, and then the sudden onset of anticipatory anxieties overwhelmed me and, as usual, I ended up having to say 'no' and didn't go on the trip. I afterwards reverted to lying on my bed in a deep depression. I was so deperate to get out of that state that I took an extra 5mg adderal, making 25mg total for the day). It lifted my mood enough above my depression that I was able to get out of bed and occupy myself for a bit. But then I went out to dinner and ended up sitting there staring out into space, not talking to anyone. It really sucked. I guess as the adderall dose wore off my depression came back, OR the extra 5mg made me too spaced-out (I doubt the latter, since I used to take much more adderall daily). I can't wait for my pdoc to return from vacation. This whole tapering off of all those drugs followed by having me double my klonopin and add a small dose of adderall just hasn't seemed to help my core symptoms, which seem now to be anxiety and depression. Maybe there's also an underlying bipolar element that's shining through now too - like cyclothymia and even some mixed moods. I haven't been on a mood stabilizer since I tapered off lamictal 2 months ago, and ever other one I've been on felt like a heavy wet blancket. I don't know what my pdoc will suggest this time (He's had me try just about everything over the years except for MAOI's). But I'm really desperate now. I definitely need help.
Peter
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