Posted by lil' jimi on August 25, 2003, at 14:42:06
In reply to re: jc12578, posted by jc12578 on August 23, 2003, at 8:56:08
hi again jc12578,
thanks for your response ... ... i like to read ... ... but i do appreciate you going to the trouble to write your story down for us ... ... and you have my sympathies for what you've had to go through ... So Far !
... ... good luck looking for the meds for you there ... ...
... ... i wish i had some good information for you, but i know so little of the psychopharmacological specifics .... .... and yours are very complex ... ...... ... best of fortunes with your education too!
take care,
~ jim> > hi jc12578,
> >
> > > well I have been more or less going through depression for more then 9 years since high school pretty much...about 3 years ago the crying and social withdrawal started...and I went in a got put on "the pills"....I have been on I think it's 6 different antidepressants and countless others to "help me metabolize them better"...so far with no success and some new and added symptoms to my depression...I have become bullemic and had several "successful"(don't know what that means...I am still alive) suicide attempts, plus I am into hurting myself...currently I am living with my mother and looking for a new psychologist cause I have yet to find one that I can even talk to....so thats that...phew...too much info
> > >
> >
> > thanks for the additional info, but (if it's not too much?) i'll ask for some more detail ...
> >
> > ... which ADs have you tried?
> > ... which ones for how long?
> > ... which supplements were used with which ADs?
> > ... what dosage and for how long were you on
> lexapro?
> > ... how did the other ADs compare with your lexapro experience?
> >
> > it sometimes helps to be able to put your experience into the context of your history ...
> > thanks for your reply!
> >
> > best of luck!
> > ~ jim
> >
> >
>
>
> get ready for a lot of reading...since ~2001 I have been on
>
> Elavil I worked up to 250 a day and was on it for like 2 months and my birth control was changed to Ortho Novum 1/50 cause specualted that it was a hormone imbalance and occasional progesterone/estrogen therapy along with that then
>
> Zoloft Due to a pharmacy error I took too much and went really crazy...actually saw stuff crawiling on me...I was supposed to take 50 2x or half of a 100 2 times a day and the and the pharmicist put 200 2x's a day and when i questioned him he said the doc had it wrong and this was what the doc wanted...SO DEPRESSION RULE 1 WAS LEARNED...OBEY NO ONE BLINDLY AND TRUST YOUR JUDGMENT....cause when I went into the ER shaking and freaking out it was chalked off as a suicide attempt and the only person wong was me...so that ended that pill and a lot of my faith in the hope that medicine may be a way to help me..
>
> Prozac was after that I was on that the longest almost a year...went from 20 daily to 120 in like 6 months daily and this is when stuff started getting added:
>
> Ativan...to help the insomnia...didn't work 2 months on that
>
> valium...same purpose I went up to 10 mg...stopped after 1 month
>
> flexaril...I have no clue why that was added...took I think it was 50 a day and turned into a zombie for 2 months
>
> *****
> new doctor...more meds
>
>
> got a new gen prac. and she added elavil back to mix 10 mg day for a month...then next month added klonopin...like 1mg 2 times a day...then I stopped sleeping so she added temeazepam twice a day...I think it was 25 each time...that didn't work so to that coctail she added trazadone 100 mg at bed time...I started gaining weight and so she puts me on zynthroid twice daily...2 multi vitamins, plus folic acid and an additional B compex daily...I was also still on the hormones and birth control plus migraine meds (phenorgan and fiornial as needed) plus nexium for my tummy...it was between 22 and 30 pills daily and then after I was a vegatable trying to wok on my masters she suggested I see a psych...which had not been suggested before as i am a member of an HMO (or so thats what I blame it on)...so I start seeing a doc and she switches the prozac for Effexor...was on that for a month and then put back on prozac the 120 mgs daily...Meanwhile I have a growing stock of pills and I keeps asking to be taken off of one or another and I tried quitting some on my own and got so sick.....so one night I took a handful of stuff and drove to the ER...hoping that they would see all of that stuff waas bad to have around...well they didn't and I went that next am and I was given refills of what I left at the ER and to replace what I took and I went home and took it all plus a bottle of tylenol...a friend/neighbor of mine came over to borrow milk and found me almost dead and called 911 and by some miracle I have yet to understand I lived without having my stomach pumped just a few days in the ICU and lots of charcoal later they realeased me and let me go with prescriptions for EVERYTHING AGAIN....I left the scrips at the hospital and moved in with my mom went to a doctor here and now have to pay for everything out of pocket cause HMO will not cover hospital here...even tho my doctors were total morons...and he put me on celexa for 2 months and then pharmacy didn't have it one month so I got lexapro instead and was told it was same and to basically take it and shut up...so I started on lexapro and stayed on that so as not to finish shutting down my body slowly and painfully...so I hope that answers all the questions...basically I feel like a victim of poor medicine and maybe not so much poor drugs...wow too much stuff...well now I am supposed to be on 30 of lexapro a day but I took myself off last week cold turkey cause I kept blacking out...I want to be put on something else 1 medication that dosen't make me black out as i need to be conscious to work on my PhD
>
> jc
>
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