Posted by zoobie on August 20, 2003, at 12:20:47
In reply to Re: Withdrawl Advice? for Jenneh, posted by sjb on August 20, 2003, at 9:06:37
If you break it down, you'll see a trend why people become depressed/anxious.
My story is somewhat similar.
My mother always told me I'd be nothing, that I wasn't smart enough...so in turn I decided to go to school for Computer Networking. I wanted to prove to her that I could enter a male dominated field (I'm a woman) and beat the odds.
In turn she was very impressed and bragged to anyone who would listen. Upon graduation, I felt very lost and upset for I didn't really want to work for the rest of my life in this industry.
Earlier this year I was looking for a new job and I found that everytime I set up an interview, I felt sick at the thought of going. It was to the point I became extremely anxious and I would have to leave my interview. It manifested from there and I developed agrophobia. In turn I became depressed and went to see a Psychologist.
I realized that all the decisions I had made were for other people and not for myself. I didn't even know who I was. I became anxious because my body was trying to tell me something, and it got worse and worse until I had no choice but to listen.
I've left my career, moved to a different city, gone back to school and am becoming the person I AM, and not the person everyone else expects from me.
I'd rather live a simple life without the luxuries of money and be happy, then try and keep up with the "Jones'" and live an unfulfilling life.
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