Posted by BLKVETTES on August 19, 2003, at 22:39:22
In reply to Re: LEX POSTER GIRL Wayne, posted by Lex Poster Girl on August 19, 2003, at 22:09:30
> Hey Wayne,
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> So sorry, just figured you couldn't get to Chitown on such short notice :)
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> I think if there is a genetic link in my family - it was my father. My hesitance to tell my brothers is not shame as I am the Lex Poster Girl in both senses these days. Sometimes I think I'm too quick to tell people but, for me, it's a bit like finding a great new book or band - I want everyone to know about it. I've even begun writing about my experiences for a local paper and send the columns to all my friends. Being the baby sister, I'm tired of my brothers being so worried about me all the time and they are both so thrilled with my current disposition that I would hate for them to have to be confronted with their sister's problems all over again, particularly because we're spread out across the country and no one is breeding at this point so that's not an issue. I'm at about 8 weeks with lex and will share that with them when it seems appropriate.
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> I would be really interested in any of the information you have compiled. I remember the difficulty I faced in my high school and college years and would not wish what I went through on anyone. I'm looking into volunteering for a suicide hotline now that I feel I'm stable enough to be of use to others.
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> So, did the other meds not work or did you adjust to them? I've done so well on lex that I kind of get anxiety about it not having the same effect in the future.
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> And, by the way, I'm quite proud of my newfound geekdom - I've found it quite helpful.
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> Take care,
> LexeySo now its Lexey, does that mean were like friends now. JUST KIDDING!!!! Im really happy for you and your recovery. I know what it feels like to want to die because you cant control your thoughts. I cried for 70 days straight I swear to GOD. I was on paxil allergic reaction!!! My tongue and mouth and throat swelled up after upping the dose after about a week. Went straight to zoloft for about 3 weeks and kept getting sicker and sicker. My skin was turning red and it felt like I was on fire. New years eve I stopped all meds because I was truly a physical wreck. I had lost way to much weight, been up for 30 days straight, constant crying and boy did I want to die. I ended up in the hospital with severe stomach pain so bad I passed out. Well they did blood tests and come to find out my liver was shutting down on me. A very rare side effect of zoloft and other meds. So I guess you could say zoloft and paxil did not agree with me. As far as info my favorites are filled with it on 3 screen names. You can go back on this site and search my name and see an amazing recovery from panic, anxiety and depression and who knows how many links I have posted. Things like post partum, hormones, stuff about meds, statistics, how to withdrawal from meds, how to take meds. I go to about 6 boards and am always answering posts and emails. I had to block my IM because it was zapping my energy. But if people email and want to chat I open it up. I even just posted this link for new people on other boards to help if they are desperate. Its what I do, its my passion next to my daughter of course. Even though I have recovered it was meant for me to help others I believe. I get thank yous all the time. Im just glad they are getting their lives back like I did. I still worry about the poop out. I remember flowers for algernon and wonder if I will regress like that. It scares me!!!!!!!!!!! Im glad you want to help others also with the hotline. Kind of weird I posted this today. Maybe we all do belong together. TAKE CARE!!!!
WAYNE
http://suicidehotlines.com/
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