Posted by Peter on August 16, 2003, at 17:24:16
In reply to Re: I'm scared-am I going insane?, posted by stjames on August 16, 2003, at 12:26:25
> I think you need to find a doc who can propperly treat you. Till then take whatever works, evern if it is not an idea treatment
>
> Well, my steady pdoc went on vacation and will be returning to his office Sept. 2.
In the meantime, I can either make myself more of a basketcase by second-guessing his choice to NOT (at least during these upcoming weeks) put me on another SSRI, since I do believe I have every symptom that SSRI's are meant to treat, though they haven't been ideally succesfully on me in the past.
Or I can trust in his professionalism and do what he says until he gets back; that is, double my daily klonopin from 2mg to 4mg, and resume 20mg adderall if I don't feel at least 80% better within 4 days.
I've been questioning this and confusing myself about it all day; why start up the adderall again if I just 'accomplished' getting it all out of my system? Why even resume the adderall if I'm now noticing that a lot of my anxiety is obsessional, which can be exacerbated by a stimulant?
But I can really drive myself mad constantly asking these questions. He has a legit reason for my not starting up an SSRI, even though it seems like it would be best for me now. He's been treating me since 1996, and I gotta believe him when he says the acute side-effects caused by SSRI commencement can really heighten my anxiety at a time right now when it's high enough (even though I have prozac 10mg tabs with me here(o:
Instead, I'll trust he knows what he's talking about regarding the adderall and that maybe the 20mg adderall does atypically help my obsessionalism in that the obsessionalism might be stemming from adult ADHD symptomology. So a low dose might affect me positively, and if not, it's immediate acting, so I'll stop it.
The klonopin/adderall combo is probably in fact the safest bet for me until he comes back, and it's not going against anything he said.
I'm just really trying to stop my constant 'chatter' and accept things as they are.
I know this is probably the wrong thing to say, but 1 beer before dinner is helping me relax a bit too(-:
(More than that, with all the klonopin I'm taking during this period, would put me right to sleep).
Ahh - and avoid the pot. It could be fun, but during this time it could be Paranoid Central.
Well, my mood will keep changing, and I might have another acute episode, but I'll cross that bridge if/when I get to it. I certainly wouldn't have been able to cross the last one without all of your help, everyone! Thanks again.
Just gotta press on.
Peter
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