Posted by Doug in PA on August 10, 2003, at 13:56:48
In reply to Re: » Doug in PA, posted by jrbecker on August 10, 2003, at 12:54:31
HI. Thanks for the post.
Oh I know there is more going on here, but I just cant seem to get on top of it. I was divorced 22 years ago at age 40. Except for 4 fine ladies in all that time, I have come home to an empty house and slept alone about 7 thousand nights. I have eaten 22,000 meals alone in the last 20 years. This is the main thing going on...lonelyness to the point where it becomes a physical pain. I am well educated and have been told that I am (moderately) attractive and look nowhere near my age. I have joined many clubs and organizations in order to socialize but to little avail. Everyone thinks that I am a happy go lucky guy and they never guess that I am totally down in the dumps. Never seem to meet the right woman. Those interesting ones I do meet are either married or 30+ years my junior. Being diagnosed with coranary artery desease and a totally clogged right artery 6 years ago was the "coup de gras" for me being optimistic. This post is one of the few times that I have opened up. Phychologists provide no help or comfort either. I tried religion for a while only to find that the more that I learned about all organized religion, the more that I thought it was just one big joke. I have just about given up all hope of ever being happy again. I cant pull myself up by my bootstraps when all the weight on my back keeps me down.Doug in PA
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