Posted by StefL on August 8, 2003, at 13:12:13
I am feeling so miserable today, and I just don't know where else to turn! I posted a few days ago about starting off on Lamictal (with Risperdal) for bipolar. Since then, I don't feel any adverse side effects yet, but I don't feel any meds working for me either! Today I just feel like a roller coaster- but with very little space between ups & downs! I keep swerving in & out of depression and anger, without any control! One minute I am thinking that I want to kill my two year old (figure of speech wise, not homicide!) because she is making me so angry! But the very next second I feel so depressed that nothing ever seems to get any better & I should have just killed myself years ago, before I ever had her. I have had very few days in my life where I felt so unbalanced! Is this a result of meds not working & essentially feeling unmedicated? Or is it possible that either the Lamictal or the Risperdal/Lamictal combo is spiraling me into hypomanic rapid cycling hell?!?! I feel very helpless and lost here. Any ideas or advice anyone?
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thread:249329
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