Posted by maxflash5 on July 1, 2003, at 20:33:18
Started medication in February for depression with hypomania. Started with Lexapro and couldn't handle much...side effect of diarrhea and joint aches and poor sleeping with severe neck and jaw muscle tension and wringing twisting fingers. Added Neurontin and then impossible reflux...stopped the neurontin while away in Italy at the start of the war because I couldn't take the GERD. Returned stateside and my psychiatrist dropped me for quitting the neurontin!
Went to a new practitioner and tried to change to small dose of Risperdal and had to quit this quickly for severe dizziness.
Started Fluoxetine with little side effect ...still with muscle tenssion of neck and jaw but not severe...still twisting fingers but not as bad.Still with poor sleeping but more focused. Added Depakote...a little less muscle tension but still it continues. Sleeping remains poor. Through all this impulse eating,buying and spending has increased significantly....(but didn't seem to notice until now as I am taking myself off Depakote! and looking back.)Back to the schedule... we increased Depakote to try for optimum effect....now vivid dreams all night...will not break away from dreams...only to hit snooze and keep going back....thoughts are scattered...sit at green light and ask myself is green a go or stop color?
I have been living for 45 years without meds...now in 5 months I have lost more of my sanity and control by using the very meds prescribed to treat me. Is it worth pursuing??? I have lived with misery and paranoia and all the rest of it...at least I felt more in control...because it was all I ever new.
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