Posted by Questionmark on June 9, 2003, at 23:53:12
In reply to Re: Important Question-- SSRIs, etc., posted by bookgurl99 on June 9, 2003, at 3:25:18
> > Wow, only one month off after 5 years of being on SSRIs and you feel fine? That's great. Weird though.
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> Actually, I'm feeling quite hyper. I'm getting a little hypomanic and talking a lot. I kind of think that my brain is still balancing things out. Like, before the dopamine/noripenephrine may have been trying really hard to come out because the med suppressed it, and now there's just too much 'activation.' Meanwhile, the calming serotonin is like, 'you don't need much of us, right? we're blocked in,' even though they're _not_ anymore and need to build up.Ah, yeah-- okay. Yeah i think you're right. i had the same experience for about the first month of being off Paxil (went off this past Dec.). It's like an emotional rebound from all that time of severe apathy. i would get really ticked and sad as heck at the drop of a dime. Even seeing a fairly benign commercial could make me tear up. Crazy. But it was actually kinda nice for the most part.
> > Well i'm curious in regard to meds in general, but particularly Paxil (or any SSRI) and Nardil. i was on Paxil for about 2 years and, i can't really tell, but i feel as though i've never been the same since stopping it--
> How long have you been off of it?About 6 months.
> >like it's more than just "relapse", like i'm more messed up than i would be.
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> What do you mean by messed up?The depression is BAD. i can't think-- can't think straight. Terribly obsessive-compulsive (which means a lot of different things for me)-- worse than ever i think. Extreme feelings of inferiority that *i'm* not even used to, that i don't even completely understand. States of mind and moods that are much more unpredictable than what i'm accostumed to-- which makes for an extremely vague self-identity. And the list goes on.
> I'm noticing that my attention span is still quite short, but improving. (It was short on zoloft this past year.) I don't recall being this way before. I'm anxious that it could be the meds having rubbed away at my little brain connections all these years. Or, this is a transient effect of getting off the meds.
Yeah, i feel that-- like i just can't think; like i'm not in control of my mind enough at all. i dunno. But yeah i'm anxious about the same freaking thing. Hopefully it Is just a transient effect of getting the meds (and/or maybe a worsening of depression from relapse for me).
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> >There are so many factors (esp. psychological) involved though, that it's hard to tell. But what IF, you know?! i mean it certainly seems POSsible. But i duno. i hope not. ... But i really WANT to know, and there seems to be so little information on this sort of thing (long-term effects/changes/damage from an SSRI or what have you).
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> I think the only way to know would be to get a SPECT scan to examine your brain activiity. And even then you'd have to judge based on what you knew of yourself pre-meds.Yeah. That'd be neat, but probably inadequate.
> > Yes: stupidity, slowness, incompetence, ADD, depression, social anxiety, indecisiveness, scrawniness, the myriad of problems that come w/ OC-Personality disorder, procrastination, lost youth, regret, inferiority, self-hatred...
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> hey, i'm dealing with a lot of the same issues! I was diganosed OCD-PD once myself, though I don't believe it. Maybe we're just highly motivated, mildy perfectionistic, anxious folks with a tendency to worry on the 'what ifs.' Wouldn't we be called 'neurasthenics' in the past and given 6 weeks of bed rest, no responsibilities? Bed rest at once!If *you* don't believe it, you're probably right (as long as you were given an adequate description of OCPD). From what i've read, however, i definitely think OCP is an accurate description of many of my quirks and problems. Also, i'm extremely UNmotivated, sickeningly perfectionistic, and, yeah. Ooh, what are 'neurasthenics'? i like their treatment. Six weeks of bed rest-- that's what i need-- well, no. Now an etERnity of bed rest... that would be nice. ok i'm done
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