Posted by mysteryroad on June 6, 2003, at 21:08:18
In reply to Re: Nightmare posts » mysteryroad, posted by Kathii on June 5, 2003, at 14:37:13
Thanks for the replies..I have yet to try Lex..And not sure If I will..I'm so tired of all the ad's and their sides..As like a lot of people, I've tried many with POOR results..
In the 14 yrs of suffering from depression, I've found that NO medication has helped anything significant..It's the same suffering with the hope that something will come along and make us better..No chance..Let's be truthful.
Basically, visiting my pdoc is like asking him for the flavor of the month..Same old meds and b.s sides to go with them..I'm so tired of it all..When I come to the boards, the same pattern follows, year after year.."X med was good for x months then I switched to x med because x med1 made me frigid/bonerless after x months on Dreamdram @5mg every 21 minutes.Should I get a new pdoc?"..
Know what I mean?..It's such a false life..Like a half of a life..You never get to be who you want to be, if only for short moments..Just enough to know somethings all wrong..At 43, I've given in to ever reaching my childhood dreams..My screwed up 20's and 30's took care of that..
CHRIST!! I couldn't think straight!!..Friggin' depression took me down and I didn't even know it...AARRGGHH!!..I missed!!..That's right..I blew it..Me and my big frickin' DEPRESSION..Gee, God must have been out of heaven when I called for help..God?..what another false thought..I laugh at these Christians who say there prayers have been answered because they gave more "heart"..Great..My heart was no good..Thanks God..I'm better now not believing.
Now, where's my rolo..I must look for yet ANOTHER headshrink..
Thanks for listening.
Mysteryroad
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