Posted by Merci on June 6, 2003, at 8:07:06
In reply to Re: ECT blues » Merci, posted by Geezer on June 5, 2003, at 21:40:35
Hey Geezer,
My dx. is treatment-resistant major depression. I've been on 20+ drugs/drug combos in the last 14 years, with moderate, brief success on certain combos of high dose ADs. Nothing has been too successful lately, though, thus the ECT.
Even though I've been dealing with this illness for more than half of my 31 years, I find that it cycles and that just about every 2.5-3 years I find myself in the grip of a major depression that just won't let go. I had a doctor's appt. yesterday - he was on his way to a conference and will return on Monday. Thank god for this site.
I am lucky to have a circle of friends who care about me and want to see me better - but this is such a hard thing to explain to someone who hasn't experienced it. How do I explain that getting out of bed and taking a shower takes an enormous amount of energy and isn't going to happen every day? How do I explain the fact that I cry at the drop of a hat and can't stop for an hour? I realize that I don't, in fact, owe anyone an explanation - but I can't even explain it to myself.
I'm a long way from being well, too - right now I feel especially unwell. I'm just trying to make it until next week, when my doctor comes back from his conference. I can't even imagine feeling well, but I hope it happens. I hope it happens for you, too.
Merci
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