Posted by Merci on May 21, 2003, at 20:08:26
In reply to Oldschool / Mags..... OR anyone on ECT?, posted by ant-rock on May 21, 2003, at 16:29:08
.After 13 years and 20+ antidepressants (in countless combinations), I finally decided to give ECT a try. I had 3 unilateral sessions last week and have had 2 bilateral sessions this week. I didn't feel any results from last week's unilateral sessions but am starting to feel SOMETHING this week - I suppose I'd best describe it as a slow lifting of the dark, dark mood that has clouded every aspect of my life. No miracles yet, but I'm going to stick with it.
.I have an unusually strong memory, in terms of past events (from 10, 20 or 30 years ago) but I am having some memory difficulties this week. I am forgetting things that happen within a few hours of a session, though I can sometimes remember details if I am reminded. There is some stuff that is just meant to be forgotten, though. For example, my mother brought me to Monday's session and just relayed to me that after my session, I INSISTED that she go to the cafeteria and get me some fruity muffins. I remember no such thing. So far all the things I don't remember are of very little consequence.
.The process itself is not bad. The worst part for me is having an i.v. line started; after that, I'm asleep very quickly.
.I guess to summarize, for the first time in a very long while I am actually feeling a bit hopeful - maybe it is going to take something this serious? harsh? to break through my treatment-resistant depression. If your depression is serious enough to even warrant the consideration of ECT, I would consider it seriously.
.I'd have no problem keeping you posted as my treatment progresses - I don't know how many total sessions are planned. Please, if you have more specific questions, feel free to ask. I would love to think that my experience could actually help someone else!
- Merci
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