Posted by Bob on May 8, 2003, at 14:59:23
In reply to Re: How do you work, keep a job, with Depression?, posted by fallsfall on May 8, 2003, at 14:06:28
I too have been on LTD for about 15 months now. I struggled at work for years and years, trying to hide my transgressions and make it appear as though I was fully productive. It was extremely difficult and led to enormous amounts of stress - especially if I was called to task for something. I always thought in the back of my mind, that if I could just try that next med combo, I'd be home free and make it up to everyone. Uh-huh. It kept getting worse and worse, to where I finally experienced a crisis and had to drop out. My family, friends, all thought and hoped that it would only be for a few weeks, but I knew better. It was just too much to go back. It makes me sad to think I've been on disability for so long now, but what can be done? I am still in no shape to go back despite all that I have tried in the past year and a half. Full time work demands a lot from a person, even if you are just sitting at a desk. My lifestyle had gotten so bad at work, that I had to work a shifted (late) schedule with extra hours every day to make up for my severe inefficiency and unproductiveness. That led to social isolation outside of work since there was no longer any time or energy left for other things. I don't have a lot of waking hours or energy to start with. Try working a full 8-9 hour day when you sleep an average of 12 hours.
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