Posted by Caleb462 on March 31, 2003, at 1:07:17
In reply to Depression as Pain / High Dysphoria..any one else?, posted by bretbe on March 31, 2003, at 0:05:58
> Hi, new here but wondering how many experience so-called depression like I do. If I actually felt "depressed" that would be a good day. My emotions feel dulled but that's not really the bad part, it's the chronic intense pain in my head and dysphoria (miserableness). Never realized "normal" was an emotional state until mine got all screwed up. I'd take any side-effect if could find something to lessen the pain. Subjective feeling in head/chest area, where emotions used to exist, most analogous to nausua NOT that I feel sick to stomach but how nausua engulfs head but difficult to point to area...it just exists in there and very painful. I've tried everthing and nothing has worked. Desperate and going on 15 years...not sure how survived this long except hope next medication would help...never did. Very hopeless especially now. Life feels like tremendous burden, not enjoyable, miserable all the time, can't wait to die...would kill myself but feel bad about people I would hurt even though I feel like tremendous burden. Anyone else out there with similar symptoms?
Yes, I can relate to most of those feelings. All the major depressive episodes I have experienced (including the one I am in the midst of at the moment), have had a large physical aspect. A feeling of general pain throughout the body, but concentrated in the stomach and arms - all of which seem connected to my emotional/mental state. It's quite horrible, really. I have a p-doc appt. in a few days, and despite not being a religious person, I'm praying to god that I get out of this mess soon. It hurts.
Good luck, buddy. Hang in there.
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