Posted by Shortcake on March 17, 2003, at 14:01:33
Where I can talk to someone? Today I go to a new doctor (last doctor was paternalizing me and I felt not at all involved in my healthcare) she gave me homework to do...she is looking to put me on either Effexor XR (I have depressions, anxiety and horrible headaches), Lexapro, or Paxil... she has asked me to look these up and it seems Effexor may be the one to try first. I was on Prozac for 8yrs and stopped it because a b/f I had didn't believe in meds and said I didn't need it... now of course the b/f of 2 1/2yrs is sorta gone (physically, but still hugely involved in destroying me mentally)we are 3,100 miles apart but still he can take me from a "normal moment" (wish I was bi-polar just to feel a mania!!!) to flat bottom depression in no time.
I don't know what to do... even if the new dr puts me on an antidepressent starting tomorrow how am I going to endure the next several weeks while it kicks in???
So anyhow, I sit here now and I've cried until I can barely see out of my eyelids. I have a birthday coming up next monday and I have been praying I won't have to acknowledge it. Only thing that keeps me from offing myself is my kids and the devestation it would be for them. But I tell you, it hurts SO BAD to be alive....
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