Posted by Krissy P on March 14, 2003, at 0:00:46
Hi all, I just wanted to share. First, Ron, when you posted to me, I felt like I was being dissed. I know that you meant well, and I have just been through so much with these meds that I felt like you were another doc-just preaching to me-that's my stuff. I took it that way, and I apologize if I came across upset. I was, but I know now that you took the time to help and reply to me-and I appreciate that-I really do.
Next, I have to say that I am in a good mood. But more importantly, because I really told myself that I am NOT responsible for my family's happiness. I am grateful I have a place to live, however, my mom is one of the most negative people I have met. I actually talked to myself and told myself that I am not responsible for her happiness and for some reason, it works better when I actually SAY it so I can HEAR it. Anyone relate? My point is, is that sometimes I get caught up in trying to change people-ESPECIALLY my familty that I forget me and my dreams, goals, and needs-something NO med is going to give me. I truly believe that meds certainly help and I am not saying they have no use-obviously. They are a blessing to all of us, not always, but nonetheless, a blessing.
As far as Lamictal-last night I took 50mg and slept well, and had no dreams. I didn't have any cycling today, and if I felt the depression creeping in, I immediately prayed, and thought of positive things. I have many feelings, as I know we all do, that I cannot share on this board, but I wanted to apologize to Ron, and definately continue to share my experience getting back on this Lamictal and Effexor-XR (even though 50mg of Lamictal is not a therapeutic dose;)) I was telling Ron, that I am one of those people that do not need large doses of meds to get a positive effect, and many of my docs have remarked the same. That surprises me, becaues I am heavy set, thinking the more weight you have, the more meds you need. I wonder if that is even true? I will take 50mg Lamictal tonight also, and continue to be patient and chill, like I am so good at advising sometime others of doing.
I also want to say that I am very thankful for you all, and I appreciate the caring, concern, and help regarding my posts-and nope, I'm not manic-I just wanted to post this because I respect each and everyone of you for sharing, helping, and being a survivor. *hugs*
That's all I wanted to say:-):-)
Kristen
poster:Krissy P
thread:208912
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