Posted by David Smith on March 12, 2003, at 23:19:42
In reply to How do I get a benzo?, posted by Caleb462 on March 12, 2003, at 22:42:33
Wow! Benzos, my favorite topic. When I first tried Xanax for three months, I would have done just about anything to continue taking them. I felt utterly in control of my surroundings for the first time in my life. Of course, it was an illusion.
Today I have two bottles of it laying around, unused. I could refill it six more times but I probably won't. I think the efficacy of these pills diminish with time and the brain changes accordingly. I have concluded the only sure thing about psychopharmocolgy is its changing nature.
I tried to opt out of the serious drugs because I did not want to see myself as being "one of those people." Here is how I obtained the Xanax:
"Hey doc, my shrink is trying to force all these drugs on me and I don't feel I need all those pills. Can you give me a small dose of ________?"
It worked.And then I had a relapse.
Since then, I am learning to trust my pdoc bit by bit. I still think he is in cahoots with the neighborhood pharmacy. And I still research anything he prescribes. But we now have an understanding that we will work as a team.
And I am the captain.
p.s. I have a few bottles of Klonopin laying around too!
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