Posted by KrissyP on February 24, 2003, at 20:51:48
In reply to Re: I AM REALLY SCARED » KrissyP, posted by noa on February 24, 2003, at 20:14:20
Thank you so much for those of you who replied to my heartache-believe it or not, it helped a lot. I started back on 75mg Effexor-XR this morning, and I start back on 50mg Lamictal tonight. A few hours after taking that first pill of Effexor-XR again, I got a bad headache. I was thinking that, yes, the med had been out of my system and that was a sign that my body is now getting introduced to it again. I'm wondering how my body will react to the 50mg of Lamictal tonight. I am so done with going off and on these meds. I am trying so hard to realize that I do need them, and I do have a mood disorder. My pride gets in the way, and I only end up hurting myself, and those that love me, especially my mom. I don't want to sound self-centered-that's another issue, a comment I got from an ex-friend in the heat of her anger and her issues. Anyway.... I will never forget the "attacks", "lashing outs", the severe mood swings after going off of Lamictal last March, and the huge, deep depression I have felt since and moreso lately-so severe after going off Effexor-XR in December. I am not saying that I am doing great after only 1 dose of starting it again, I'm not. I still felt a little sad throughout today, but all I can do now is wait, and wait, be patient, and persist. I am a big believer on realizing medication isn't going to "fix it", but it helps me personally cope a little better, calms me down a little better. At 32, I am at a point where I am really thinking about what makes me feel worthwhile in life, and I am working towards getting the courage to spread my wings and fly again. It has been many years. I thought about yoga, and some kind of involvement with others besides the psychiatric realm alone. My life has had no meaning for a long time and I feel better when I am interacting among people. I see my Psychiatrist again just 4 days from now on Friday for a check up on how these meds are doing with me. These feelings that are happening are really, really tough, and I have sincere empathy for those who suffer not only what I am feeling and what I have been through but what THEY are feeling and what they have been through also! I can't say it enough.
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