Posted by ricardo on February 18, 2003, at 9:10:47
Well, I'm not really happy to say that, but I'm quitting taking anti-depressants for a while. I started because of my moderate depression, which had been quite cronic lately, and some episodes of panic. Not to mention anxiety, which has been part of my life ever since I remember being alive. I was really hopeful at first, but now, after my third frustrated attempt, I decided that I've had enough. Paxil made me unable to have orgasms or to exercise; Wellbutrin did nothing for my depression and I had some terrible rage attacks while on it; Now, Tofranil... Currently, I'm impotent! Some people who replied to my previous thread said my impotence might be related to it. One person said it's unlikely... It all started right after my starting on it, so I'm quite suspicious it is related to my taking imipramine. Since my case, as I said before, is "moderate", I decided to see how I'll do without drugs for a while. I've just started taking fish oil and I've registered at a gym, as well. I also believe that the mere fact that now I've stopped denying that I have depression will help me cope with those crises whenever I have them. I wish I were alone, so I could be impotent and nobody would say anything about it. But I'm not. I don't want to treat my depression and ruin my relationship as a consequence. I think we've got to make choices in life, and right now I'm choosing to be well with my partner and try to cope with my depression. I haven't discussed that with my therapist yet (I'm seeing her today), who's the person I trust the most in this world, but I guess my mind is made up. My therapy has been my best source of support in years, and it'll just keep being that way. I intend to keep visiting this board, which is something I really enjoy doing. Of course I'll go back to AD's whenever I feel that my depression gets out of hand. Until then, I'll keep trying to find alternative ways to treat myself.
Thanks a lot for the support I got from everyone here.
Hugs,
Ricardo
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