Posted by TommyTommy on February 17, 2003, at 1:52:02
I know that this website deals almost 100% with discussing meds that help to alleviate and deal with problems and believe me: I am one of those people. I am 26 and have been on meds on and off since age 15. As of recently I again tried to go off and had to almost instantly go back on because I crashed so hard into depression that I felt no reason to go on living. What I would like to discuss though in this thread is if anyone of you can relate to what I am going to discuss and also what I think is a very underated issue that is overlooked by most doctors because they don't really give any validity to it because let's face it: they can't relate to it. It's more of a thinking phobia that is related completely to social phobia. It's almost as if that little tiny voice inside your head that spits out negative comments always seems to gain the upper hand because you truly believe that it has power over you. An example of this is as follows. Lets say that I'm having what I would consider a great conversation with somebody. let's say that I am feeling confident and witty and funny and the person is laughing. Suddenly this negative thought enters my mind that says: What if you start to collapse now and the conversation goes downhill and bad. Then of coarse with that are the consequences of which are a blow to your self esteem and a ruined time. The bottom line is that it will be a bad thing if this ridiculous "negative thought" comes to actually be a reality. Well for me: it always becomes a reality because it happens. Now this is just one small little example but they always deal with how people will percieve me and how I will feel about it. Now what do I make out of this? What in hell does this mean? Is it just falty thinking? Well of coarse it is but how do we fix it? Can a pill fix it alone? Do I need to fix it by myself? The bottom line is that every doctor I try to explain this to really just completely skips or better yet bypasses right over it because they truly have no clue of what to make of it or maybe they just really really don't care. Has anybody else out there experienced this in any way and if so can you offer me any good advice?
Thank you,
Tommy
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