Posted by DSA on February 10, 2003, at 23:01:13
In reply to Re: Luvox/BuSpar/Enada-- dissociative flashbacks?? » missinglynxx, posted by hildi on February 10, 2003, at 0:40:11
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>Too much getting high really affected my brain
>chemistry-I truly believe that. I know I've
>always been different, but I have no doubt that
>all my excessive drinking and drug use played in
>a major part in where I am today because it made
>my messed up brain even more so. So I say: quit
>the pot unless you have cancer or something, and
>really need it for the pain.
>HildiHi, Hildi. My two cents: I think the excessive drinking and so on aren't so much the cause as the effect. That's not to say that self-medication is okay, but as you say, you've known you were different -- and it's that difference, I believe, that drives us to medicate ourselves when the 'traditional' methods don't work or aren't available. I've been there, as have you. Alcohol, marijuana, cocaine, various flavors of amphetamines, LSD and other psychedelics, a kaleidoscope of sedatives and barbiturates, off the wall stuff like DXM . . . oh yeah, all that and a bag of chips. Forget the tricyclics, SSRIs, what have you.
Has it affected my brain chemistry? Well, I worry about Olney's lesions from time to time. 8^)
But then I remember what I felt like when I was thirteen years old, just starting my grand adventure in depressive illness (and long before self medication was an option); and I realize that, as much damage as I may have inflicted upon myself, I did start out as damaged goods.
I can say that I've met better success with the prescribed meds than with my own concoctions. But success has been fleeting. I'm trying again, hoping for the best this time.
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